There are those who deserve and those who don't

Last night. Last night was a Monday night and I really missed him. Yes I did. Because usually on mondays he spends time with me. He says "good morning" and I get kissed goodbye before I go to work. Just 3 weeks ago..it was still like that. Just 3 weeks ago I wasn't alone. But apparently..it wasn't enough. and as they all say..he didn't deserve anything that I did for me, any of feelings and any of the love.

Today though, I miss her. Yes yes..just the lady down below. Who deserves me loving her, even though I probably don't deserve how much she loves me and how much she has done for me.

Yup. that's my grandma-ma. I miss her today. I was walking down to the store when I overheard these two old ladies talking and one was telling the other how, just the night before she was making dumplings (like wanton noodle dumplings) and how they aren't easy to make and it didn't turn out well. And there was being mean..thinking..ha.My grandma could close her eyes and wrap dumplings..

Ok mean to think that way and mean to be eavesdropping

shucks..how I really miss her. The smell of her cooking, her smiles and her words of advice, which once I thought was simplistic, yet upon reflecting upon them, they made so much sense.

She's one other person that everytime I see her..she grown smaller and perhaps has succumbed to what getting older brings. she's still strong though. She's amazingly strong.

I wish i would be too..when I grow old