Being nonchalant.

I suppose nonchalance is one of the best ways to protect yourself from the harm that the world wants to inflict upon you. And i'm currently feeling like the world really wants to harm me, with my FAT ass, chin, thighs, tummy and terrible terrible eating habits. Yes.

And I'm also currently acting very nonchalant towards cute boy. Very. Very nonchalant. Could be a good thing, or it could be a bad, but ah..he hasn't mentioned why I haven't messaged him yet, so I guess..probably..highly likely...most definitely (yes. yes. yes. you and you and you are all right. sorry. But it kinda sucks that you guys are.) he's got a girlfriend. Yup. see. thats why..cute boys are either gay or taken. So what's in it for girls like us who are left behind. boo. See. Nonchalance. Happy endings are only those found in the faraway world, imagination conocted world of fairy-tales. Ah sucks. It's quite ridiculously strange to see him working two weekends in a row, because according to my observations, yes observations because I swear i'm not stalking him as afternoons are the normal times I buy coffee, he doesn't work two weekends in a row. Maybe they're really in need of working people now. Oh well. that said and done. Ah. he's got a gf.

Ok. Yes i know i'm ranting. But i can't help it. I'm feeling fat.
and it's bad to be or become a fat 21 year old.
Plagued by obesity for the rest of your adult life.