Home.

For the last few years, I've been going through summer with ONLY one principle that has helped me make many many decisions - in every sense, it was a principle that I adopted so that I could protect myself and unconsciously allow me to be myself without ever having to be unguarded. This principle has been pretty darn good to me so far, I never ever have to deal with any thing when I'm back here unless I choose to deal with it - most times, I choose to not unless it has got something to do with close friends or someone I care about.

It is therefore very strange that I now feel that I'm being judged for decisions that i made here in relation to people back home. I don't think I've ever felt so strongly about being judged for people that I choose to hang out with or people that I choose to be with. and i mean why should I be right? Who I am and Who I hang out with shouldn't be a reflection of what kind of person I am and even more, who are we to judge the decisions that other people make? -shrugs-

Friends? Sometimes, I get the feeling that it not so. Oh well, I don't know. I could really just be hormonal. Things could turn for the better as most of the time they do... But i'll be sure to let you guys know.

Crowded by the city, all around me
Need some silence from the loud
And noisy crowds

And I'm trying to catch a breath through the air of death
Can't see the sun for the clouds
Those dirty clouds
- Oh Me, Oh My, Imogen Heap