overwhelmed

Amazed yet how everything has turned out but nothing short of gratitude. Really. Last week and the first half of this week was a blur (although it still feels like the days are draggin on so SLOWWWWWWLLLY before the weekend comes). I remember sitting in church on sunday just overwhelmed with gratitude about all the things that have happened so far. And I still am. But now. This friday, I've got two huge obstacles that await me before the year is finally finally over for me and I can plan for January. Exam results and a pleading test. They're both not huge issues but the former has caused me enough distress to disrupt my sleep patterns for a week striaght. I wake up with nightmares. I'm in a conundrum. I can't decide whether I want my results back or not. Trust me, i'm not one of those that will worry about whether my grades are Ds or not at this point, but rather I truly fear (gripped with fear to the very bottom of my soul) whether I've passed everything. I haven't told anyone yet, but you know I blanked out during the first trusts' question - I couldn't remember the distinction between a trust power and a discretionary trust (and to think that i was so clear about them both before the paper.) see that is why i fear.