When I must believe.

Can't we just confess
Everything we hoped for
Was leading up to this
Don't wanna let it slip away
Staring at the window
Suddenly I'm looking at an open door


Waited all of my life
On the verge of something
Never really knowing what it is
Stuck inside the lowlife
Till you broke through like daylight
Now, I found my place to land
Here I am.
- Here I am, Natalie Gauchi

so now, after thinking so much about it. Mulling over it. I must believe in the impossible. Like my sister says, "jie, you really just don't believe what!" so i think i must. I must try, even though it's incomprehensible to my mind. and I can only do what I can and hope that in the next few months, things change and perhaps, what I really want deep down inside..this thing I've uncovered in the course of the last few weeks will be an option for me in the next year and NOT, three years.