I Ru P R A C

I'm really glad my mentors aren't treating me like that. because I do admit that I really know nothing.

I've learnt so much in the last couple of days and it scares me as to the things that I don't know. I ended up the day feeling a little inadequate with the amount that I knew BUT on the other hand, I'm glad that I'm feeling this way now as opposed to say in a few weeks when school starts, or in a few years when I find myself in a position where I actually have to give advice, produce memos or anything along those lines. I wrote my first memo today and honestly, I knew zilch as how to do one but now I'm a little wiser. So it boils down to alot of practice.

The "it's not about studying/doing something hard, but rather doing it smart" tenet all makes sense to me now. I've been finding myself at points where I'm just looking at everything and going, "whoa. I have no idea where I'm going with all this" and then at that very point, my brain says goodbye.ha. As one of my mentors say, "as long as you're doing abortive work."

So at the end of today, especially today..I'm glad that I have patient mentors, I'm glad that I've gotten to learn from tres brilliant people, I'm glad I have teachers who make me feel comfortable enough to allow me to ask them questions (even if I feel that they're silly), I'm glad that I've got advice about something that I've been trying to find the answer to for so long.

I really know now, that I want to practice law and even more so, I want to be someone who knows her stuff and who can practice good law for the rest of my life.

So yes, I ended up the day not very happy with myself, but wiser. Therefore, tomorrow I'll try again.

We may never find our reason to shine
But here and now this is our time
And I may never find the meaning of life
But for this moment I am fine
- Streetcorner Symphony, Rob Thomas