and here we go again...

If anything, I'm the epitome of the fine line of distinction between the "I wants" and the "I shoulds". Ask anyone, anyone who knows about my shopping habits, my chocolate obsession, coffee and alot of other things that my life centers on, I blur that distinction every time.

I am also the master of indecision. Yes, even though I know I like to plan how things are, I'm pedantic about organisation, freak out when things happen last minute but I think most times, it is because there's a desire within me to maintain some form of control and so if everything inside of me is in mess, what better way that to exert influence on those things on the outside that I can.

Oh well, whatever it is. I know there are many things in life that I want/should/need or don't want/should not/need or... but then sometimes there are things in my life that I not only need, but I want terribly as well. These things are often the momentous moments (ha.), times that represent the fork in the road, the now or never, the "damn, if i knew i wanted this so badly now... i would have done such and such way way way before!". So yup.

I need that very badly. I have had at, up to this present moment... (and am still counting!) 5 days of insomnia, a sudden pimple breakout, additional weight around belly, nightmares (when i do get to bed!) and very bad headaches. I would give up buying shoes for a year. I promise. One whole year if I got it.

Please please please, pretty please.