A love and hate relationship.

In my life..i think there are many contradictions. My love for many things yummy, and my hate for being fat would be one of them. Another issue that I've got love and hate feelings for is being exhausted. See..exhaustion is one those things I love because I know I've worked very hard and my body is pushing the boundaries to keep up, yet on the other hand, I really hate it because it means that I should slow down (even if I don't want to). I don't like to slow down. I don't like to be doing only one thing at once. I like to be dabbling in everything, a foot here, an arm there. You know. Just trying, afterall, I can only be young and healthy at the same time once.

That said. I'm absolutely insanely exhausted. Whether it's physically or mentally, I don't know. what I know though is that the feeling is killing me. I really hate the way I'm feeling now, although the good thing about it all is that my body is screaming, "send me to bed, yanting!", the word "now" is just a whisper, but I think the volume is about to be significantly increased soon.

ugh.

I honestly, cannot wait to go home. Go back to Singapore. Yes. Yes. Yes. I think if this was march and I had to stay till November, I would seriously cry. yes. CRY. Sometimes, I don't know what I'm thinking anyway. I find it hard to be myself sometimes. (That said, I swear I have secretly an anti-social personality, and am in the midst of developing a host of other disorders which include depression.)

In any case, though depressing thoughts aside...I've started making my own pretty things. Please check it out here. Support me. Send your friends and spread the word

I've got a law ball to attend. on such a cold day somemore. Blimey.