Pure. Pure ambition

Every single time i attend one of the monash law competitions, whether it's mooting, negotiation or the bevy of other finals and events that the monash law LSS organises, I'm always reminded on one hand why I chose to do law and why I really want to practice, on the other, it always makes me questions whether I have the capbilities and abilities to become who that I dream of becoming. It's always scary and pleasant at the same time to see people your age excelling at things that you can only really imagine yourself doing. I mean of course, it could be as simple as just getting out there and putting yourself in a place where it's just too far (as opposed) to close for comfort. It really really sucks sometimes.

Today's negotiation competition which I attended with Rose just reminded me, though not in a in-your-face kinda way, but more to the extent of that pure ambition wouldn't get you anywhere. Ambition without hard work or good grades, seriously. Doesn't. Does not get you anyway.

you know, I really want to work in a big firm, and be the best at what I do because it really feels good to know every single thing and know exactly what you're doing, but yet at the same time, I'm not sure. I'm not certain (and I hate not being so) about where I'm going to be, what place am I going to be at at the end of this whole fiasco, these two degrees, these strange, painful yet sometimes so enjoyable experience of being at school. And truthfully, it scares me because I really don't wanna be a bummer for the rest of my life.

i'm better than that and I know that full well.

That said, my exam timetable is out and I think I won't say when I'm going to go home, perhaps it'll all be a mystery, then I can sneak home like how I sneaked away.