awesomeness.

I had the priviledge of being in the presence of, in my opinion, one of the greatest live bands in the music industry at the moment. dave matthews was awesome - the music just came together, the guitar, the drums, the violin, the saxaphone, the trumpet and even the yukaleli. It was a good end to a shit-ass day. I can't even really remember why i was so tired, but the music revitalised my soul, like how, as John Mayer sings," You should have seen the sunrise with your own eyes, it brought me back to life." It's beautiful, as to how often songs can relate so personally to you, your life and your predicaments.

And of course, Missy Higgins' new album is out. And it's beautiful and amazing and all other things brilliant. Just one song that is stuck in my head at the moment...

"Steer"
missy higgins
It was always simple, not hidden hard
You've been pulling at the strings playing puppeteer for kings
And you've had enough

But the search ends here
Where the night is totally clear
And your heart is fierce
So now you finally know that you control where you go
You can steer

So hold this feeling like a new born
Of freedom surging through your veins
You have opened up a new door
So bring on the wind, fire and rain

It was always simple, not hidden hard
You've been played at a game called remembering your name
And you stuffed it up

But the search ends here
Where the night is totally clear
And your heart is fierce
So now you finally know that you control where you go
You can steer

'Cos you've been listening for answers
But the city screams and all your dreams go unheard

But the search ends here
Where the night is totally clear
And your heart is fierce
So now you finally know that you control where you go
You can steer
Yeah get out of the box and step into the clear
'Cos now you finally know you can steer

This,i reckon, is my ultimate dream. To be in the position one day, where I finally am in control of where I'm going. No longer would there be what-ifs with regards to my life or future. Neither would my future be hanging in the balance, in the hands of others. I want to be able to know. And when I know, I am sure that I would be stronger and not vulnerable. I know that I wouldn't be weak and moan at every set back. To know that my life would work out as I imagine it to be, I would be contented. To know that everything would be alright at the end of it all is comforting. It's not the actual act of being in control, it is the knowledge that despite the current setbacks and obstacles in my life - for sure, i would make it in the end.