I'm the new disease.

Yes. stay away from me. Because there's this chance that you might accidentally get sucked up in this self-deprecating, self-pitying, depressive hole I've dug for myself.

There's an ebb and flow of tides. and there's the ebb and flow of how I feel. At the moment, there's an ebb. A great big ebb that hasn't gone away since the beginning of this year. there's more ebbs than flows.

I suck. I think I really do. sorry i've been a bad friend becky. Please know that I'm praying.