never knew a love like this.

First, a few photos after the 19th JUNE 2007....

Afterwhich, i have to say...that another chapter of this life of mine ends today. The whole drama-mama and the whole should i or should not ended. I won't say that I'm not sad, but i won't say that I'm not happy either (ok, terrible quadraple negative. my bad). My biggest fear didn't materialise, Weiyong's "worse-case" scenario happened.BUT i shall deal with it. it's ok. I'm ok. I had MY PEOPLE to keep me sane. ( how i am never going to take the advent of technology for granted anymore).

I suppose this can be considered as I having another guy friend who would probably blackmail me in future about all my deepest darkest secrets (of which, you can be guranteed i so will do too.ha.) I do, at least know that somewhere out there, there IS a boy who likes the same stuff as i do and who understands what i'm getting at. (hopefully, there's another out there somewhere) flying pigs and being helicopters (WHAT?!). I have another PERSON. whee. I might actually be able to live my life.

And though some (always some), may argue that perhaps I'm being too optimistic too quickly as we have NO idea what might happen, even a month down the road. I will still hold on to that hope that perhaps, this friendship would work out fine (having already paid my karma dues in this area) and not having to face the fate in The Fray's "HOW TO SAVE A LIFE"....

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

but rather,

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side
-Always by your side, Sheryl Crow

Thanx babe.:)

And you know what, for the first time in my life, I think i've actually met a decent guy. i can say that for everything that andrew isn't, he makes it up by proving to be one of the most decent people i know. When the time comes and he figures out what he wants, that girl, who ever she is - will be one helluva lucky girl and as always, as with all my other very boisterous friends who put up with my nonsense because i'm a girl, I would be waiting to see who she is. Hopefully in the future, we'll all be laughing about it over drinks. I the lawyer, the many doctor/.../... friends I have and perhaps the very many others that have joined the gang:)

GOD, what an optimistic post. seriously, I'm running on something that's not caffeine now. It's perhaps my brain over-riding the stuff in my heart. Call it self-preservation. Truely though, i'll be ok.