favourite songs and melancholic days.

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

Angel. My favourite song ever. This is the song which I have decided that will be played at my funeral. How utterly morbid but i chope first mah. haha. It was such a rainy day today and it affected me even though my day started at 4. Well earlier, but i kinda spent alot of hours lounging around my bed and just making calls, thinking. Then I got out of the house and the rain put me in a really contemplative mood. Melbourne is actually a really pretty place, grimy with the rain but pretty. With the right music, everything is really perfect and it encourages thinking. Feels some times like I'm just having a conversation with the rain and the city. The cobble stoned streets and the old building. Dodgy and even the working types pushing pass you. It strangely grants me this whole sense of contentment. and peacefulness. Therefore, in light of that, I am ok and getting better. I won't die of being heartbroken la please. I'm stronger than that and worse things have happened before, much worse than being rejected by a boy. ha.

so don't freak. No one should freak out. I'm ok. hee hee. MUM, DAD i'm ok and your investment is ok too. doing great and being fat. haha.

Staring at a maple leaf
Leaning on the mother tree
I said to myself we all lost touch
Your favorite fruit is chocolate covered cherries
And seedless watermelon ohhhh
Nothing from the ground is good enough
Body rised
It puts over me

[Chorus:]
Oh chariot your golden waves
are walking down upon this face
Oh chariot I'm singing out loud
To guide me
Give me your:
Strength

Remember seeking moons of birth
Rings made mirrors of the earth
The sun was just yellow energy
It is a living promise land
Even over fields of sand
City filled with burden
Cover me
From bringing back
More than a memory

You'll be my vacation away from this place
You know what I want
Holding that cup,
It's pouring over the sides
Make me wanna spread my arms and fly
- Chariot, Gavin McGraw

and this, another great great great song. makes me happy. takes me away from all things lonely.:)