My cousin says i'm a solar panel.

Having come back to Melbourne after a whole crazy one and half weeks of absolute fun, I think it's not strange how quickly reality catches up with you. I cannot possibly imagine the amount of work that I've got to do, the list of things that I have to do in my head is rather fuzzy - perhaps because I'm still trying to run from reality. ha. I"m always escaping. Running away, and maybe this is why I like running so much.

I'm just wondering now though if, I can actually be great at anything. I'm probably half good at heaps of things but I wonder if I actually be GREAT at some things. I feel so half-baked at times, trying try try try but to no avail. I'm starting to believe that trying only makes up that 80% coz' there's the 20% of talent which I seem to lack in every single area.

I do make myself feel so inadequate at times.

I think I do actually NEED and WANT Hongkong very badly. I need to do something positive that would contribute to my dream. I have to know that I'm going somewhere - otherwise.

I’m on the wrong side of a parallel universe
Am I alive or just dead
I've been stumbling in the dark
Living in a crash world
- Crash World, Hillary Duff