incessantly searching.

I often run because I enjoy the two hours I have with my head but also because, there are alot of times throughout my life that I need affirmation that really most things will come to pass with preservance, alot of strength and very often blind determination. I have lived most of my life like that BUT things are a little different now. Usually, my secret strength and preservance would only have to be taken out ocassionally, now though I find myself having to draw on it more and more. It's like each time I take from it, it takes me me double the effort to build it up again.

I don't know. But it's tiring. I've NOT been wanting to admit it, but I'm already flaying under the stress of school, of a new home, of internships, of having to think about moving.

I need to be stronger.