Vicarious living.

I pretty much live in a world of make-believe because try as I might, I cannot NOT hope. So I constantly wish to be all these things, to want all these things and do all these different things. Hopefully, like I've been told, one day all these dreams will come true. Absurd as they may be. Out of the ordinary they may be. Or even when people tell me otherwise. On the other hand though, i admit, it's a pretty good form of escapism.

Now that House is back, I can be the doctor that most other doctors are striving to be. Cool, snooty (because I can) and kick ass smart.

Having spoken to someone who's just been to NY and back, it has reignited my desire to go to NY and have the most amazing time. Fifth avenue, hot chocolate at rockefellar centre, skating in central park, snow falling, chilling with friends, being with the ones i love over christmas. Tres fantastique. Summer watching the US Open, soaking in the summer, working in a high rise building. Tucking into good meals. NY's the place to be. At least now, I can live this secret holiday of mine vicariously through someone who's been there recently.

Heroes has returned as well, the Hills is on the way and Damages is in the works. TV has spoilt me but it has allowed me to take a trip to la-la land once in awhile. Now all i really need is TiVO, the trip to NY, a superpower, truckloads of brains and I might actually be set for quite a time to come.

So grow tall Sugarcane,
Eat that soil, drink the rain
But no, they'll chase you if you play their little games
So run, run fast, sugarcane.
- Sugarcane, Missy Higgins

.Exams are three weeks away.