messy fun.

It's been a great few days and nothing, NOTHING can beat the amount of happiness I've been at the recieving end of, with Jamie and Jasmine here. My ol' quiet but pretty house is now filled with people and trust me, it is a glorious feeling being surrounded by the people you love and you know, love you too. The people who understand you, who understand why there is a need to allow me to sleep another 20 mins past the wake-up time, who understand why i HAVE to swear first thing in the morning (mainly because no coffee and lack of sleep equates to cranky me), who understand my chocoholic cravings and a whole lot of other things. I'm happy they're here - it drives all these wintry blues far far away.

That said, there hardly have been circumstances whereby I had a need to re-evaluate where I stand with certain issues, especially when it has no moral or academic bearings. Still though, I've had a need to do show these couple of days besides all the other god-knows how many million other things I've had to do. I just wonder. I've never had my choices limited by another person's opinion - someone I love even, my life was never meant to be based on another person's. I always believed that opinions are opinions and whether another chooses to accept that opinion or not, is one of fundamental rights that us, as individuals possess. To impinge or force your opinion on another, is not only unfair but VERY, very narrow-minded.

I just wonder though what's enough. what exactly is right and wrong in this world especially when the line is so indistinct.

Yes, the bible is right and perhaps, there can only be one right and wrong to some people. But clearly, after seeing this world, the world that we live in, the choices that people have to make (the magnitude imaginable only to those who can empathise) - i truly believe that sometimes, rules have to be broken for the greater good. I don't know. Too hard to articulate or even write at 5 in the morning.

I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
am I the only one who's noticed
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
- I don't wanna be, Gavin DeGraw

Friends over for dinner tomorrow. It'll be fun. Tennis is getting fun and Federer bt. Nadal in the final men's singles game of Wimbledon 2007 - so that makes him the CHAMPION.