sometimes i wonder what is ENOUGH?

Hail to the light, that my baby's watches me.
In the darkness of the window,
I can hardly get to sleep.
Wish for the hour, that the night time soon shall pass.
And the morning dew will bring us,
to a day our souls can last.

Love has a reason, there's a meaning to the world.
We're giving love (yeah)

Situation: candle light,
enough to see the bits around you,
but its never very bright.
Stare at a memory,
you through the grapevine heard the truth.
It's good to learn from your mistakes,
but that only works in youth.

Love has a reason, there's a meaning to the world.
We're giving love
Giving love
Giving love
Giving love

Restless minds, curtain calls, follow fanfares.
Troubled hearts, just a walk down the hall.
Restless hearts you take a punch, just to land one.
Troubled minds, it's only fair after all.
Mountin' the trail, but you got it in sight.
Sometimes our only way is jumpin' I hope your not afraid of heights.
Reach in my pocket, for a bill that isn't there,
To face all of the un-doings, is still more than I can bear.
- Meaning, Gavin De Graw

I don't know how I would choose if someone ever made me choose. I thrive on their support, the laughter they bring, the liberties i get. The right to rant, scream, laugh and cry. The liberty to be anal and pedentic. I'm truly blessed with people all around, this life that I lead which though is the crappiest at most times. Friends whom I haven't seen in ages, whom I haven't spoken to either. Whom I've made promises to, but have failed to keep. Whom have been patient and who understand that i'm trying. Family, who sometimes drives me crazy but I still love all the same. Family, whom I have no idea how to respond to - but still family all the same. I haven't done what you think I have done. It's not foremost on my mind - even if you, you think that it is. There are alot of things going on in my life right now and one decision, that you might consider so momentous and perhaps, life-altering, sufficient to sacrifice EVERYTHING for...hardly is, in the WIDER scheme of things. Life is tough, it's harder than you can possibly presently comprehend (not that i'm saying you never will). I hope you will realise that I'm not intentionally "running away" from the problem which you addressed - it's rather that I've absolutely no idea what to say to you. I won't say that you're too quick to judge, I won't say either that you're right. I still stand my place - everyone is entitled to his/her opinions, BUT no one has a right to impinge those opinions on others. It's not fair. It's not just and it's not moral. Christian or not - respect comes first.