Compromise in Privacy.

Hey you all,

There's been a recent compromise in my privacy and I really don't want to share my life with ANYONE ELSE but the few who matter. So I've moved.

Drop me a message on my email if you'll like my new blog address!!!

Thoughts.

I remember how when we first met... I had to bug you to get on Facebook. Just because it was so convenient and you really could easily check out the competition.

because it was so fun then and I could observe you from afar.

But now, I don't know anymore. I know too much.

Lately, some part of me thinks that ME, YOU + ME wouldn't be able to survive this.

and will someone tell me why...

That one of the few good things that ever happens to me is so hard to keep?

Let's hope this never happens.

你常常說 我很完美
沒人能取代 我給的一切
我就以為 我努力更完美
我們 就會永遠

完美並不美 我們多虛偽
你讓我的好 變成一種罪
完美並不美 當你愛了誰
我的完美也只是 不完美

- 不，完美, 李玖哲

My song is love
Love to the loveless shown
And it goes up
You don't have to be alone
Your heavy heart
Is made of stone
And it's so hard to see you clearly
You don't have to be on your own
You don't have to be on your own

And I'm not gonna take it back
And I'm not gonna say I don't mean that
You're the target that I'm aiming at
Got to get that message home

- A Message, Coldplay

Delighted.

I'm rather happy and bouncy at the moment, when I'm not thinking about anything else besides some of my closest and dearest friends... see. They're all moving on in their lives, it's almost as if they are starting this brand new chapter of their life stories...

Ada -getting married and possibly a new career in the teaching profession? :)
Jamie - MOH scholarship (you kick ass girl, see dreams do come true!)
Mon - engaged and chasing that uni dream + slowly rising through the ranks of the civil service (that can't be bad!!)
Doi - career, career, career and getting married possibly (?)
Becky - off to see the world :)

I think following your dreams is a great and wonderful thing, because well, at least there are dreams and ambitions to chase!

You go my friends, i'm insanely proud of every single one of you!!

Quest for a new phone.

Ah ha. Tis the season to catch up with what technology has got to offer. It's time for me retire my Sony Walkman phone. I'm a bit reluctant to see it go because it's been so good to me. But then i kind of like of the idea of being able to check my email on the go - particularly since workaholism is inherent to me. OOH. how lovely.

I was contemplating getting a Blackberry because BB messenger is very good for Barbara to message me and rant for free. But then it's not sleek enough and I could wait for my firm to give me one when the time comes (assuming that they consider it a necessary expense. ha.)

So now after much deliberation, it's a toss between those two phones. The new Nokia N97 and the Sony Ericsson X1 which are really similar features wise except perhaps for the fact that the Nokia has got a better camera (dammit. it has the same number of mega pixels as my canon!) and the SE X1 is 8g heavier.

However, I am leaning towards the SE X1 more. Particularly since i don't really like the Nokia that i have now and i fell in love with the SE X1 the moment i set eyes on it.

hmms.

In the latest news, it's cheaper for me to buy it off singtel. whee. maybe that's the way i'll go. new phone here i come?

Overstuffed and very full.... BUT

very very contented. I think my tummy knows when it's been fed good, chinese food.

Like now.

But my heart also knows when it needs a bit more TLC. (hint. hint.)

The headache's gone for the most part and I was well enough to indulge in some physical activity.

So we shall just wait and see.

and since, I can only ogle at things and not buy them for the moment because I'm holding out for something extra.... these things are still on my "WANT" list...

The Classic - Christian Louboutin Very Privé 120 peep-toe pumps


The Carry Everywhere Bag - Proenza Schouler Medium PS1


The Classic Bag - Mulberry Shimmy Bag


For more ways to fulfil your eye candy quoto, there's more to behold here. The Queen of all luxury online sites.

Hiatus - for a good cause.

Now, if you're fortunate enough to have 795 dollars lying around some place and you have NO idea what to do with it at all... buy those. They're kick-ass red pumps by Bally, of which the proceeds of the sales would be going towards the Heart Foundation. And besides, everyone can use a pair of red pumps.

Now, if only I had 795 dollars lying around.

From now till a little bit more...

I think I'm exhausted. Work, school and fighting for the things I want.

Just for this weekend till the next, I'm not going to fight.

It's all accumulated to THIS.

My stomach hurts and my head throbs, and all I want to do is sleep and have a little bit MORE love.

So, just for this weekend, till the next. I'm going to be on a break.

See you when next weekend rolls around.

But without you here I wouldn’t be the same
All my worlds come crashing in
And without you here I couldn’t play this game
I’d be falling down in a spin
- This Game, Pete Murray

May - it was one truly one of the longest months in my life.

Yup.... i couldn't decide why. Couldn't decide whether it was because it was the end of the second last page of the Leos' diary (which really just signifies that we're close to being done. there. done.) or because it had 31 days, or because I had a horrible ancillary partner or simply because it was just so damn long away from August - when i could go home. I suspect, it was all of the reasons above.

This year hasn't been as great a year as I had hoped it would be. I was a little reluctant to leave Singapore at the start because well, I truly had my reservations. By then Leos started, and I started making friends, and I thought, finally perhaps it'll be ok after all. 6 months would go by in a jiffy and I'll soon be home safe and snuggly, as if I've never left before - which was mostly how I've felt about home for the past couple of years. On hindsight, maybe it's because my friends have made it so. We always picked up where we left off, never tripping or stumbling. It's like it is still there after all these years.

But then of course, shit had to start hitting the fan and by now, being mostly 24 year olds... we know that (could be a generalisation and i apologise profusely for this!) when shit starts hitting the fan, it really really starts raining the watery stuff. Yup. So I won't say it hasn't passed, because well, this journey hasn't ended... I'm still not safe and snuggly at home. But, i suppose, i believe (with a tinge of hope and expectation, and no no no, none of those jinx-y nonsense) that things are getting better bit by bit...

These few months have only made things alot clearer for me. My dreams, my goals, my ambitions and the direction that I want to take in life. I'm really quite happy to go home. My friends here and at home would say, it's probably because HE'S going to be home and I can serve my insect-repellant purpose. But more than ever, (even though I'll admit that HE'S one of the reasons), I'm certain that being home is truly the place that I'm meant to be.

These few months also reminded me (which I somehow seem to have forgotten, in the humdrum of everyday life) that really, some things in life is worth fighting for, and your own happiness, is one of those things.

We all deserve to be happy, but not just any kind of happy. BUt the kind of contented happy. The ONE kind of happy that is independent of all external factors/stimuli.. it doesn't depend on the existence or emotions of someone else... and it should come from within. And the only reason is that we all deserve to be.

So there.

Be happy.