I have a little note on my mobile screen which I use to motivate myself with and remind myself about things some times. My sister changed my note from,


" Aim to be nothing less than great"


to


"I will fix my eyes on Jesus, author and perfecter of my faith"./

Strangely...the second statement makes more sense to me. It's more concrete. More believable and more attainable. And I think I got my first good night's rest that night this statement was made. Drew's almost driving me crazy - I can't sleep without dreaming of law.

and that is what I believe to be - eat, sleep, live the law.

and this is my new baby.

I Ru P R A C

I'm really glad my mentors aren't treating me like that. because I do admit that I really know nothing.

I've learnt so much in the last couple of days and it scares me as to the things that I don't know. I ended up the day feeling a little inadequate with the amount that I knew BUT on the other hand, I'm glad that I'm feeling this way now as opposed to say in a few weeks when school starts, or in a few years when I find myself in a position where I actually have to give advice, produce memos or anything along those lines. I wrote my first memo today and honestly, I knew zilch as how to do one but now I'm a little wiser. So it boils down to alot of practice.

The "it's not about studying/doing something hard, but rather doing it smart" tenet all makes sense to me now. I've been finding myself at points where I'm just looking at everything and going, "whoa. I have no idea where I'm going with all this" and then at that very point, my brain says goodbye.ha. As one of my mentors say, "as long as you're doing abortive work."

So at the end of today, especially today..I'm glad that I have patient mentors, I'm glad that I've gotten to learn from tres brilliant people, I'm glad I have teachers who make me feel comfortable enough to allow me to ask them questions (even if I feel that they're silly), I'm glad that I've got advice about something that I've been trying to find the answer to for so long.

I really know now, that I want to practice law and even more so, I want to be someone who knows her stuff and who can practice good law for the rest of my life.

So yes, I ended up the day not very happy with myself, but wiser. Therefore, tomorrow I'll try again.

We may never find our reason to shine
But here and now this is our time
And I may never find the meaning of life
But for this moment I am fine
- Streetcorner Symphony, Rob Thomas

Outrageous!

Boston Legal's such a joy to watch and it reminds me all the time that judges DO have it tough, whether we believe it or..simply because they have to juggle between all the rights and wrongs that our little minds come up with, they've to be objective..decide based on points of law. Judge Clark Brown's one of the funniest yet, one of the most fair judges in the show!!

It's pretty darn good movie. and I wasn't even sleepy throughout. whee.

and this, "Never complain, Never explain"...a quote by Henry Ford II was just put up John Mayer on his new blog, which from time to time provides for a rather interesting read. Check it out here...if you're as much as a fan as I am:)

Have to always remember that more than anything, i'm way way way beyond blessed.

Happy new years.

Happy new years everyone. And though pineapple tarts aren't everything about new years, they are to me more important than alot of other goodies, like bak kwa. Simply because even though you possibly can get pineapple tarts throughout the year, it's only during chinese new year that I can get a selection of it. Like be really picky, pick and choose which ones I like best hee.

I'm just waiting on my flight back to singapore. just willing the time away and thinking if i should go for a run, but perhaps I shall simply because there's going to be so much to eat over the next few days. ooh.

Before i go rambling on anyway, last night..i dreamt of jay. so here i shall leave you with a picture of him...and tomorrow night..i'm going to watch kungfu dunk. la de dah.

Stars shining bright above you,
Night breezes seems to whisper I love you
Birds singing in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me.
- Dream a little Dream of me, Diana Krall

每個人 都擁有一個夢
即使彼此不相同
能夠與你分享
無論失敗成功都會感動
- 爱因为在心中 , 王力宏


I think i need divine help.

Short of nothing.

I've finished packing to head back in an hour which is pretty amazing by my standards and at the end of it all, I'm nothing but thankful for these last few months. Or even better, I'm utterly thankful for these last 4 weeks. I very much think it was a nudge to push me in the right direction - i know now, I want to practice law. I know now too, that i want to be a good enough lawyer such that people will want to learn from me. Learn from my experiences, learn the way I speak to clients and handle matters. Learn that though my life surrounds the practice of law, it is not the be all and end all. There is still room for family, for drinks, for mulling sessions over kopi, for giving interns space to learn and experience new things. There is nothing else to say to Monty, Michael, Alfred and Nick but merci merci beaucoup.

I can't even come to express how much I admire them - though they are not famous lawyers, though they don't belong to the magic circle of law firms...they are very very good lawyers, unique and experienced in their very own way.

I've learnt more than I possibly have in the last 4 weeks than all 4 years of law school combined. I've been given the benefit of clarity as to the direction and where I want to go. I've been given the benefit of sound, wise advice. I've had so much laughter and there's nothing more really to say, but thank you very much.

I was actually really upset that I had to leave the firm, i felt as if I could be content there forever. Being a member of Clifford Law.

But now, as i head back to Civil Procedure - gah..i know it's for that greater goal in the end.

whee.

I'm a very lucky cow.